Heros of the Earth

hello! watched a documentary entitled CONTROL ROOM today. it was great. i loved the way the whole documentary was done up and it really touched me in my heart. It was also amazing to watch how the reporters react on camera and off camera- this whole issue sheds alot of humanity in the mass media today. we get to see how reporters are very much also human beings who have tehor own emotions and own lives and are not necessarily what they are percieved on screen. There is after all a great difference between what one needs to say and what one actually feels.

As i continue life on this globe, i feel my eyes being opened to what i might not want to see in the first place. i am slowly moving out of the zone where it was filled with things that i want to understand and what i dont want to understand. It has moved to a point where i have to face the world, the good side and well, the bad side, where choice is not necessarily and option after all. I am not saying that this is bad that the whole thing just sucks but sometimes when reality comes in and slaps you in the face there is only so mcuh you can do.

I guess now one of the aspects that i can control would have to be my reaction even after my eyes are forced open to the world and all its horrors. emphasis again i am not going to turn into a cold cynical bitch not believing any of the good stuff on this earth. Yes i know so now i ask myself what can be done? i learn and watch. i look and listen. my understanding of what this world is made up of does not equate into me being someone totally unfeeling.

Being filled with emotions is alos a part of life is it not?