On off buttons

buttons.
this has nothing to do with the PCD highly carnal song. rather it was just a word that popped into my head while i was doing my QT.
for many of us our relationship with God is like this emergency button where in a moment of panic or fear or emergency (essentially a situation that is out of control) THAN we seek God than we look for Him and ask "O lord let the rain of your presence fall on me".
i admit that sometimes even i am like this.
i get carried away i stray and later on i return.
after which this led me to think what can we bring unto God?
everytime we sing we say "Lord i give u my heart" and before we know it WHAM we are sinning again.
what can we bring unto God?
what can sinners bring to the presence of God?

i dont know about you. but for me, i never want my relationship with God to become one that is an emergency button.
the BIg red emergency kind in cartoons where in emergency it blinks with a red light (making you even more kan cheong)and you just WACK darn hard and than POOF you are safe.
i want my relationship with God to be a steady one.
steady growing one.

also this is one QT where i suddenly recalled a conversation i had with a fellow colleague and it got me thinking.
CALLING.

defense. offense. WWJD.

Que sera sera

Super addicted to this new korean drama called que sera sera that was filmed in singapore. (which i had great fun catchingthe cast ^^)
its darn good. haahaa i like it cos its fast paced and i think to some extent it challenges certain rights and wrongs as well as societal norms. you can catch the show on you tube (so far only the first two episodes have been shown) or if u like to watch things BIG BIG like me, you can have fun with a certain device called clubbox.
BUT its a rather "adult" like show do NOT expect the GOONG kind of plot.
(i dont like the GOONG kind of plot anyway. so if u find that your taste runs contrary you might not like it that much)
this show has heart and this certain intangible feeling i dont know i just like thw whole feel of it.

i really love the soundtrack of the show as well (: its really really a good soundtrack.
its been long since i love a korean show and its soundtrack so much.
the last korean show that made me wait in such anticipation was MNISKSS.
other than that there was always a lack of the "oomph" factor.

WATCH THE SHOW!!
soundtrack is baove u can listen to the starting song (:

19 experience

last week was a rather eventful week for me, but happily eventful. so here i am with pictures (:
how fast time passes. its like only yesterday when eric touched down in singapore and me and xinhui chan were all geared up and excited.
the whole experience has been relaxing and fun (:

the first day and first time i met him RASA SENTOSA

WOOOOOOOO~~~

friends we made (:

the english couple who were rather amused at us (starung at eric)

no photo does eric justice. period (:

SEEN!

SAW ALR! (^___^)v
very CLOSE
YESTERDAY at RASA
yay!
haahaa
will elaborate more someday perhaps
just not in the mood to expand on what happened now (:

heeheeheehee

HE IS HERE

THE VIDEO
two words after i watched the video
.
..
...
SO CLOSE
little fans went cos no one knew (:
heehee
i wont mind meeting him
tml perhaps?

haahaa
God... can?

ps: wu zun is not out of favour, i shall seek to be strictly friends with him (for now)

Rest is addictive

i miss japan!

spent time with God yesterday.
let's put it this way... alot of things happening.
things that i might not have the ability to deal with head on.
yet i give thanks to the Lord for his gift of strength and positivity and also very unexpectedly... JOY (:
haahaa and now i am addicted to rest! to think that yesterday i was complaining about being uneasy about rest well, now... HAAHAAHAA i LOVE it!
finished five eps of dal ja yesterday.
wah is is SOOOO therapeutic can?
just sitting there and letting my brain rot away as i get absorbed in the plot.

i m glad i have God

Rest

i need rest. i know.
ever since the release of the a levels results my life has been a mad rush.
not a day spent for myself at home.
cousin's wedding, open houses, work, parent's anniversary etc etc
crazy schedules that can have me going to three different locations in a day
this is tiring
its been long since my life has been so hectic which is why the doc said i fell sick.
i know i am a person that needs alot of personal time and space
yet, oddly enough,
now that i have time to finally kick back after the hectic weeks,
i feel strange. like...
i am not used to sitting around and doing nothing at all.
dont get me wrong i really enjoy sitting in front of my computer and engaging in mindless activities
its just that i am super unused to an empty schedule.
especially when my schedule is empty and yet i have things around me that need to be done.

whatever it is i am determined that today shall be a day of REST.
SABBATH.

overhead bridge

what a day.
left church feeling like crap cos of the flu and all.
"feel like crap" really epitomizes (such a word?) my feelings.
i guess i just needed a sabbath i really need rest and everything.
anyways, was not feeling too good as i headed down to newton to meet my parents and was (as usual) complaining to God.
but i am so glad that how i went up the overhead bridge feeling like crap i came down feeling slightly better.
dinner with my dad and mom further ended my night with a (:
really, i felt so loved by God through my family.
its really really the little things that matter.

MORE FOOD PICTURES

BEST MILK IN THE WORLD!!!!!!! LOVE IT haahaa (HIS and HER milk)

TRY THIS its at Toa Payoh.
its Good really the skin is sooo thin and crispy (:

My wonderful dinner of Tiger Prawns.
Hallelujah
and of course, only tasted the best because of my parent's love.

At the end of the day, i still give thnaks to the Lord.
Indeed, when i follow Him it leads to blessings 100%
He is a God that never shortchanges us (:

battle something

as i was blog hopping and reading some blogs two words popped into mind

ignorant versus unaffected

you cannot be ignorant but you can be unaffected, unfrazzled by what is happening around you.
its like we can be ignorant about the world (eg should i say middle east and you go... "WHY? DOWN THERE VERY PEACEFUL WHATTTT...) we should be able to KNOW what is going on in the world but AT THE SAME TIME we still think and consider whether what is happening is right or wrong. we have to be discerning. and when i say unaffected it does not mean "wah middle east so far none of my business" rather its more like you dont go and freaking ball your eyes out everytime you read something concerning the violence there. okay the middle east thing is just an example to carry across my point.

the reason i am blogging this is because somehow or rather i feel that people begin to hobble at these two extremes. which means, they either choose to live in their lala land or else they get too emotional about lives situations. excessive of anything is not good and hence, here comes my main point of control and moderation. know what is beneficial and what is not. than again i wonder of there;s anything wrong with hobbling at the two extremes. to me i dont like things to be that way- too excessive at either end. perhaps its because i do not enjoy (for myself) like sudden outbursts or life like an emotional waterfall.

is it a matter of perspective?

perhaps i should say understanding but not conforming.
doesnt mean that just because everyone does it, its correct.
and does not mean that if no one does it, you cant.

alot of things at the end of the day, for me, comes down to a decision between me and God.
i dont want to sound like some preachy person so i will just leave it as that.

i have a fish bowl over my head
i see what is happening BUT it doesnt mean that i have to take it in (:

i am too tired to elaborate everything... if u get it you get it.

Unable to comprehend

am considering locking up my blog.
we'll see how it goes.

the feelings i have now makes me ponder.
compassion? love?
compassion. love. growth.
its a personal relationship with me and my God
and He loves me all the same.
...


till i can find the words.

hear my thanksgiving O Lord, for i feel loved and honoured and oh so very Glad.

have you met your God, whichever you believe in, today?
are you able to meet your God, which ever you believe in, whenever wherever?
does Your God, which ever you believe in, love you?

if not...

banana margarita

(with sugar round the rim)

this IS bliss (:

ON eating oranges

I FINALLY REALISED WHAT THIS BLOG IS MISSING OUT.

ANSWER: FOOD PICTURES

this is also timely as i am not gg to blog about how my life ends on friday and how my sould will leave my body (touch wood).

so as i am eating the last few honey LU KANS of this holiday season. AND let me tell u i am a orange eating professional. I can eat the oranges in such a way that without using my hands i will be able to filter out the seeds and not bite on any of them! HA! BEAT THAT!
oh and i really really dont like oranges and seeing how i can keep eating these mandarine oranges will give u a hint of how good it is really. It has converted a firm apple supporter like me. its terrible that they only come once a year! dang! which means that will once again ( be forced) to go on a orange fast till next year...
BUT...
Its OKAY cos there will always be BANANAS!


the brand of teh ornage. basically its the one with the nic ebox and paper bag from NTUC.



i think the picture above look like lips haahaa

Today and Now

alot to say...
words fail to consolidate my thoughts today.
why not i just show a verse or rather a few verses. that should suffice to tell you the going on(s) in my mind.

21 By day the LORD went ahead of them in a pillar of cloud to guide them on their way and by night in a pillar of fire to give them light, so that they could travel by day or night. 22 Neither the pillar of cloud by day nor the pillar of fire by night left its place in front of the people.

13 Moses answered the people, "Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the LORD will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. 14 The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still."

through exodus 14 i am wowed once again. can i say this once more?
i am loved.

old and dusty=antique=priceless??

its just a click away :( today finally understand what that means... considering and working out. happy chinese new year everyone!! sorry that i dont put a tagbaord for you guys to leave a mark BUT BUT if you want to leave a comment u can always use the comment section at the bottom. yes i know its more troublesome but its just that at some point in time i decided that i want to blog for myself and not for readership etc etc.

and i am here to dust off all the dust that has been collecting in this place. i have been busy with my job and the endless new year celebrations. however, one does not neglect time to talk to God and strengthen my inner man! chinese new year was a blast. i think CNY is really a wonderful time for bonding the family and bringing people closer. yes indeed this year i made and effort to talk to people that are more unfamiliar in an attempt to build better relationships with them. as i submit to God he opened doors for me and i feel that i want to give myself a pat on the back for that. as for work, i am getting more and more attached to the kids that i am teaching. as much as i like to mumble how they are monsters etc etc but u really really see the joy and value in teaching (:
perhaps a calling for me? haahaa too soon to tell actually.

i think that the a levels results will be coming out soon. and holding onto God (: for the bible says that we should not worry about tml because each day has enough worry in itself. so... yeah that shall be my anchor. God will provide.

really not in the mood to blog about deep insightful stuff all i can say that God has been good (as usual) and things have been good too. with reference to the title MY BLOG is not old and dusty but it is a priceless antique despite the lack of updates heehee.

will (most likely) return with pictures!

Ang Moh blogging (literally)

yes u heard it right! i am ang moh cos i have *drumroll* RED HAIR! oh joy! *does the happy dance*

alot of things that i want to say yet at the same time perhaps i am just too lazy to type them all down. let's just say that i have learnt some very important lessons and i stand ever amazed at God and his patience with me in so many areas. at the end of the day it all goes back to God really. like the book Yu Qian lent me it brought to light something that i have never considered and perhaps even taken for granted. the book reminded me that the reason we can pray and have effective prayers is because God is willing to listen. Indeed, it all begins with his willingness to listen.

i don't want to make any absolute statements hence, its a lil' difficult for me to blog right now. as the saying goes "we never know"... i have so much to say but let's just say till i have increased understanding and wisdom i will not express my point of view just as yet (:

i am but dust and yet he makes use of me all the same.

The video

here is the video.
i forget about the wonders of you tube.
heehee
let's see if u can spot the shinhwa changjo singapore orange balloons!

Break FAST!

Isn't it beautiful ^^

예쁘잖아 저 수줍은 미소를 봐 아마 좋아하나봐
그 고운 눈에 담은 사랑 정말 날 위한 건가봐

고마워 너무 아까운 널 내게 주신 저 하늘에게 난 기도했어
변치않고 너 하나만 바라보는 내 사랑을 지켜만 달라고

I love you 목숨걸고 널 I love you 비가 와도 눈이 와도 너와 함께
사랑할게 이것만은 약속할게
I love you 비바람이 눈보라가 몰아쳐도
너만 오직 너하나만 아끼고 지켜낼거라고 주먹을 꼭 쥐고서 맹세해

너의 수줍은 미소 하나로 하루종일 내 가슴은 벅차오르고
너의 사소한 행동까지도 내겐 이쁘게 보이기만해

어쩌면 우리사이에도 힘든일이 있을지도 몰라
걱정돼도 내가 먼저 안아줄게
고운 눈에 눈물따위 볼수없으니까

I love you 목숨걸고 널 I love you 비가 와도 눈이 와도 너와 함께
니가 서있는 그 길에 내가 있을게
I love you 비바람이 눈보라가 몰아쳐도
뒤만 돌아봐주겠니 눈감고도 날 찾을거야 혼자두지는 않아

이젠 아무걱정하지마 네 옆에 내가 항상 있잖아
이렇게 안기면 괜찮아 너의 맘 내가 다 알아

나도 I know life is so hard yo
아마도 그대 그럴테죠 믿어줘 와줘 내 곁에만 있어줘

아픈 이별에 헤매던 못난 날 버리게
자그만 손으로 날 잡아주며 믿어준 네 마음 사랑해

내 눈엔 너만 보인단 유치한 고백으로 평생을 함께 하자고

오늘만은 꼭 말해볼거야 미소로 대답해주겠니

I love you 비가와도 눈이와도 너와 함께
사랑할게 이것만은 약속할게
I love you 비바람이 눈보라가 몰아쳐도
너만 오직 너하나만 아끼고 지켜낼거라고

가슴에 손을 얹고 주먹을 꼭 쥐고서 맹세해

Isn't It Beautiful (English lyrics translation by Kay77)

(Eric)
Girl
I just want you to know that
I'm always here 4 you
This one's 4 you, girl

(Minwoo vocal)
Isn't it beautiful! Just look at that shy smile
Perhaps she likes me
That love filled in those lovely eyes
It really must be for me

(Dongwan vocal)
Thank you. You, who is so precious
I pray to the heaven that gave you to me
Without ever changing, my love is only for you
I asked to watch over that love

(Minwoo vocal)
I love U, with my life
(All)
I love U, even when it rains
Or when it snows, with you
(Dongwan vocal)
I will love you. I promise you this
(All)
I love U, even when the thunderstorm
And the snowstorm rush in

(Hyesung vocal)
Just you, only you
I will treasure you and watch over you
With my fist held tight, I promise you

(Junjin rap)
Only with your shy smile
My heart feels like it is bursting all day long
Even your smallest gestures
Look so beautiful to me

(Hyesung vocal)
May be there will be
Some difficult times even between us
Even when there is a worry
I will embrace you first
Because I can't see tears
In your lovely eyes

(Minwoo vocal)
I love U, with my life
(All)
I love U, even when it rains
Or when it snows, with you
(Minwoo vocal)
I will be with you on that road you are standing
(All)
I love U, even when the thunderstorm
And the snowstorm rush in

(Hyesung vocal)
Will you please just look back?
Even when you close your eyes, you will be able to find me
I won't leave you alone

(Andy rap)
Don't you worry about anything now
I am always standing beside you
It will be alright if you stay in my embrace like this
I know all that is in your heart

(Eric rap)
Me, too. I know life is so hard, yo.
Perhasp it will be like that
Please just trust me, please just stand by my side

(Hyesung vocal)
When I was lost during the painful separation
You helped me letting go of that foolish me
With your small hands, you held me
And you trusted me. I love your kind heart

(Minwoo vocal)
In my eyes, there is only you
With this childish confession
Let's be together for a lifetime

(Dongwan vocal)
I really want to say this to you today
Will you answer me with your smile?

(All)
I love U, even when it rains
Or when it snows, with you
(Dongwan & Minwoo vocal)
I will always love you, I will promise you this
(All)
I love U, even when the thunderstorm
And the snowstorm rush in

(Hyesung vocal)
Just you, only you
I will treasure you and watch over you
With my hand over my heart

(Minwoo, Dongwan, & Hyesung)
With my fist held tight, I promise you

SO SWEEETTTT!! and it is dedicated to their fans!!! AHHHH! i was grinning to myself like an idiot infront of the com teehee (:
shinhwa HWAITING!! SHINHWA CHANGJO BA XIA!!!
should watch the mv for this one, its darn nice!

Not nice

This is NOT good. i am sick.
oh gosh.
messy messy.
so terrible.
AHHHHH!!!
God ar God i think i am going crazy already :(

with bossa nova (so nice)

yes as the heading suggests i am blogging this entry with a good bout of bossa nova in the background. i recommend this singer which i am listening to OLIVIA! she is from our very own sunny island and i enjoy listening to her. something really relaxing about bossa nova and jazz.

moments like these i really thank God for (:

alot of things have been going in my head. i feel that as i experience more i begin to learn more and as i always say understand more. understanding. this is a term that is perhaps often used by ironically, seldom understood. when we say things like " i understand" the question that remains is do we really? maybe perfect understanding will never be achieved. but i believe a way to grow in our understanding is really through experience. u will only understand when you experience.

recently i have caught in with the book buying fever. in the past, when i was doing my jc life, there was alot of books which i wanted to pick up but i really didnt have the time. now that i have the time, i have no more excuses. time to feed my long deprived soul :)

i know that it is cheaper to borrow books BUT i really enjoy buying books. to have a nice thick book on my book shelf, belonging to me that is really something that i enjoy. i enjoy flipping through the many pages of the book, letting it take me on a journey as i absorb myself in it. i enjoy pondering about the contents of the book as well as absorbing the information that the book gives me. this is like one of the rare joys of reading?

but the one thing that i like most about reading nowadays is that it enables me to block out my surroundings. i dont know why but i find great joy in this. i enjoy browsing through borders or perhaps even life bookshop by myself. taking my own sweet time to flip through the books. one of the greatly indulging things about book buying is that it cannot be rushed. take time, look through the books and decided which one you need most. or which one appeals to you most. being unable to rush something is strangely something which my choleric nature enjoys.
there is so much to buying a book. the way when you pick up the right one you know or perhaps you think u know. being so so so spolit for choice . shelves and shelves and shelves.

a cup of coffee and a book with slight music in the background... nothing really beats that.

Hot name ok!

A- You like to curse alot.
B- You like people.
C- You're wild and crazy.
D- You have one of the best personalities ever.
E- Damn good kisser.
F- People adore you.
G- You never let people tell you what to do.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.
I- You have a fine ass
J- Everyone loves you.
K- You are really silly.
L- You live to have fun.
M- One to have fun.
N- You are dead sexy.
O- You are one of the best in bed.
P- You are popular with all types of people.
Q- You are a hypocrite.
R- Fuckin' Crazy
S- Easy to fall in love with.
T- You're loyal to those you love.
U- You really like to chill.
V- You are not judgmental.
W- You are very broad minded.
X- You never let people tell you what to do.
Y- One of the best damn bf/gf one could ask for.
Z- Always ready

and so MY name ^^

E- Damn good kisser.
I- You have a fine ass
L- You live to have fun.
E- Damn good kisser.
E- Damn good kisser.
N- You are dead sexy.

S- Easy to fall in love with
E- Damn good kisser
A- You like to curse alot.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.

L- You live to have fun.
I- You have a fine ass
L- You live to have fun.
I- You have a fine ass
N- You are dead sexy.
G- You never let people tell you what to do.

conclusion i am a good kisser with sex appeal and a nice backside? HAAHAAHAAHAAHAA