On life's nitty gritty

On life's nitty gritty

Nowadays i dont really blog much alr because i DID THE STUPIDEST THING ON PLANET EARTH. i spent one WHOLE week doing french revolution only to go to school today and realise that i cannot DO ANY OF THE QUESTIONS. so EFFECTIVELY i am dropping the topic now. AHHH *mumble grumble* i am tempted to the BRIM to SWEAR right now ok NOW. ahhhhhh. okok *inhale exhale* MOVE ON...

anyway the lil' prince in my house/man of the house 2 (aka my younger brother) is going camping on thursday. i am not really worried about him cos i am sure 100% that he will be FINE and i think he needs to toughen up. if not ar will really be super "girl" when he grow up. haahaa did i mention that my brother likes to be clean?? wait til he has to do the mud bath in camp MUAHAAHAAHAA. but really hope that this lil' fella will come out fine (:

on a lighter note, i dont know what is it like or how to pinpoint my feelings but sometimes i really really do not iwhs to see "more of the wor;d" or "how the world is really like". yet i know that the whole process will be inevitable. i know that some people might find the idea of venturing into the wolr das very exciting and i like it too at times but i just dont want to be push too far out THERE. than again. going out there does not literally mean having to conform to what the world is. it does not mean that i have to do what people do. i guess this is the time where i really look to my yardstick and value system and stick firmly with what i think is right. i dont knwo aabout others but i guess when the moment comes and when "harsh reality" slaps me in the face (should it happen) i will just hold on to my beliefs in God and have faith that He will lead me through.

jamie always asks me how i can believe without questioning or doubting, how can i have "blind faith". i believe because i experience and i know. its like how you dont see gravity and yet you know that gravity exists! why? because you experience gravity. to me, both work on the same logic.