The only way to grow.

recently my mind has been caught in a whirlwond. i am not able to find clear and concise words to express myself. i was more on less feeling like a void. somethings happen and although its not necessarily all pink and peachy i thank Him for all he has given me. I am not very bothered by it as i choose to believe that this is a period where i can grow close to Him.

you cant get me this way. i am stronger than that.

its so ironic how onlywhen the puzzle gets broken do i feel the words coming so much faster than usual. sometimes i wish i could type faster so as to pen down all the thoughts that are currently spinning off the top of my head. i am trying my best to piece this puzzle back together and i know that if i faith it will be done. i sit here be patient and wait for his direction. that is all i can do at this point in time.

xinhui is really amazing sometimes. she told me something which i felt was really simple yet meaningful. she told me that when people asks her why she believes in god she does not and will not ramble on and on about christian values rather she sayed this...
because i have experienced Him.
a short and simple answer and yet it emcompasses so much.
may i one day be able to say that phrase with so much conviction and love as well.

and in times like these where i expect myself to be filled with turmoil i strangely feel a sense of peace and calm. its no longer about anger and fury but its about love and forgiveness. its broken but not shattered. i feel a certain sense of contentment as well. like just munching on my poky and watchih you tube is such an enjoyment. i dont need a twenty five thousand dollars branded handbag to be happy. no there is definitiely more to life than all that. Give me a 2 dollar packet of chips and give me a good korean show and that would be a blessing to me too. and not to mention sitting here in front of the computer blogging in a fuzzy warm sweater because i am too lazy to turn down the aircon (:

this is the way to grow close to the Lord, the only way. no pain no gain? i guess that saying has its origins too.

ps: its taking every ounce of my self restraint to not watch Goong. bleargh.