Walk the line

A conscious effort, a conscious decision... every waking moment

the day started off bad. i was bitter. i was upset.
i didnt want to deal with the problems in my spritiual life at ALL.
nada. ZILCH. no way.
i went through the whole day in an emotional turmoil.
i cant really describe the actual feeling but...
its like you know everything in you life is fine and dandy
all but your walk with god.
and when the problem finally strikes you full force
in the face and...
you just feel... awful
there were countless times today when i wanted to turn away once again
leave things as they are
but somehow... God gave me the strength
and i did what i had to do
this may not be crucial to some but i have been struggling with this for a really long time
i can now finally say,
my heart is open Lord. I will listen to what you have to say.
i may not be perfect
i do not know all the answers
i am still struggling with some issues
but
i will try...

i pray to have the strength and dertermination to walk on with Him.
Silence may sometimes be the best answer to alot of things.
The centre of my life?
The centre of My life.