i need a sign!!!

oh gosh oh gosh i need a sign!! god dear god oh god where are you?? i neeed help i need a sign and quickly!! should i join judo?? gosh!! i really really dont know! or should i just take up a slack cca? but ever since i was in band i never wanna take a slack cca! i wanna feel COMMITED to my cca! wth?? there's judo practice tml. but i dont know and i am not sure if i want this. i need a sign!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dear god pls pls help me.
sometimes i feel as though i need to doubt my faith less like when something happens to me it if it's good i will think oh great!!! and thank god. but but if its bad i will like totally hesitate and wonder where's god? a very good friend of mine once told me that god doesnt give you what you want he gives you what is best for you. so what is best for me at the moment???
today school was okay. it was just a usual school day but it was one of those better days. =) but as the cycle of life is the morning was good but the afternoon wel.. it wasnt that great. today my class 05a05a clelebrated emily's birthday!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY EM!!! haha aye ct rep let's work together ya..? anyway, there was this mango cake that my class each paid $1.50 for the whole idea of clelebrating a friend's birthday has always seem sweet to me.
in nanyang sometimes i do actually get one of those fuzzy moments where my heart feels warm and i feel i belong. better start counting my blessings! dont compare eileen dont! you are who you are that is what counts!! =)
i signed up for dragon boating with judo (its a long story) to all my buddies you all must be laighing your heads off HAHA!! i know i know!! i had no idea what came over me when the guy said i need one more j one my hand just shot up... sigh. yeah i guess its funny kitson laughed and i wanted to too. i heard its tough but i wanna try just try. i couldnt bring myself to be enthu at judo orientation today. i wasnt feeling very well and it bloody rained when i was playing netball or captain's ball. whatever you call it.
there are cliques but i guess that's only natural.
oh gosh eileen practice what you preech count your blessings
ever since i have entered nanyang i have become more homely den ever!! i mean i was homely in the past but now... I LOVE MY HOME AND FAMILY! my mother is damm understanding so thankful for her. =) and i love all my friends.