Sometimes...

today has been a really good and blessed day :) i begin to understand how blessed i am and i guess in times like this you will tend to look at the big picture and not be a fuss pot over insignificant details of life. today i went to entrepoint at nine plus in the night with a friend. everytime i go there i will see a blind man playing music and today i guess was no different. but somehow seeing him playing so late into the night, the magnitude of his plight kinda struck me. i mean in the day time when i see him i will acknowledge his presence and myabe drop some money in and walk off. but today it was like i kinda realised how great a deal it was. like how uch he had to go through just to earn the money to keep himself going. i mean staying there and playing music from say ten to ten is no joke especially when its seven days a week. it kinda really stuck a chord in my heart at that point in time. and to top off everything i hear about joan. i suddenly feel and like fully realise how blessed i am... (and in God's grace may i always remain this way)

i am not super duper rich
but hey what i have is sufficient
i may not be super duper good looking
but at least i have working body parts :)
... you get the idea.

i kinda feel very blessed right now. so maybe we shouldnt seek so much and ask for so much after all it will all be gone when we die anyway. i guess onky one thing remains constanta nd that is God's love.

this doesnt mean that now i think i have the perfect life. it just means that now i learn to count my blessings and be contented about certain things in life. i will still have my doubts and my fears but i will just walk close with God and (try my utmost best) to have faith in him. dont know why but as i write this entry more and more i begin to feel burdened all of a sudden. so i shall just stop here. i suddenly feel slightly fearful and life suddenly seems so fragile...

i really hope that things will turn out alright for people who are going through certain ordeals, like Joan :)