Not a Saint

aigoo i dont knwo what to write and what kind of mood i want to reflect in this entry. okay shall type whatever comes to mind :) i have been thinking about some things and i guess its time to return "home" already. like these few weeks have not been splendid, i mean everything is fine but i guess i am feeling the pressure and i dont knwo how to deal with it. want to work hard the spirit is willing but the body is weak and so i succumb to temptations. sigh. i felt as though i was running an endless race not knwoing where the ending will be so i was rebellious and angry... why why should i be caught up in this race like everyone else? so every morning my walk/run to school would be filled with angsty thoughts and i would talk (aka Complain) to god about all the things in my life. YET... i forget that He walks beside me the whole way. time to be more selfless. less of me and more of him.

so much needs to be done but i will prevail for the Lord gives me strength...

quote xinhui "When you dont do things the Lord's way, you feel liberation at first and after that you just sink down." the importance of living life alongside god you will always feel loved and blessed. shall have to make the constant effort to keep my actions in check. i dont knwo how to pen down the following thoughts but even though we believe in God we are all human and bound to err someway. just pray that God will transform us.

no worries when God is with you. People only worry because they are uncertain how things will be like but in God's hands i will be safe :)

so your best and god will do the rest.

i pray to become a better person and walk Home.
make a decision on somethings need to follow through.

oh yes i think God really uses my friends to speak to me. haahaa :P