of sacrifices and responsibility

of sacrifices and responsibility

i guess we have reached a point of time in life where we are no longer that "free". we dont do what we want to do and rather are boggled down by what we have to do. i have always disliked a life fraught with responsibilities (which most likely explains my distaste in having kids) i like life to be filled with experience and a life that is well... just free. how is one supposed to experience life to the fullest when all we can do is worry about what we HAVE to do. not willingly but are actually compelled to.

i will gladly pick up the responsibility for caring for my loved ones just not additional responsibilities. i dont actually know how to put this in words its like... hmm... maybe the reason i cant put it down because a part of realises that part of life is responsibilities (and to avoid it all would be selfish) in itself and only with these responsibilities will you experience what is it like to be free. only than will you relish in that feeling. its like if there's no good there will be no evil right?

i guess than it all boils down to a degree of how much you love you freedom BUT does freedom mean you are irresponsible? you will inevitably have to make certain sacrifices to be free no?

its so weird that i just recently noticed this streak in myself. guess the old cliche saying that you will never truly understand yourself is true than (: you think you know and something pops up... haahaa

and i consolidate step by step.