difficult questions, simple answers

Difficult questions, Simple answers

Life aint easy at the moment! work work and work. i am really feeling the pressure. but everytime i just wanna gove up, something inside me urges me on. a sort of you can do it Eileen. i pray to God for help but somehow, i also pray that he give me the energy to fo my best. At least if i have tried my best i can deal with the consequences after that. if i didnt i will be filled with regret (an emotion which i detest). yet in times like these i feel God so much more than before. its weird huh? i guess the saying is true in darkness you will see the light more clearly than ever before.

this week (other than thursday which i spent with the gourmet bunnies) was filled with stress of a certain degree. sometimes i feel that i m scrambling to pick up the bits and pieces of my jc education life. i dont like to think of how we MIGHT not do well cos arts is always subjective. nope there is no concept. its just the "FEELING". but hey, this is NOT the time to think about all these. this is the time for me to run the last mile in this race and breathe the airrr :D thanks to my classmates for keeping me (in)sane as well. and always ALWAYS talking abpout DAILY NECESSITIES.

also its been weird recently but i was once again reminded that being happy is a choice. i mean so many pple ask how to be happy but honestly, its a choice. you are happy if u want to be. YOU. not others. just you. perhaps i have been to caught up iwth my studies and everything around me that i fail to see that i was slowly becoming tired of everything and i always choose to sleep. BUT as i always use to tell myself being happy is a choice. u may have ALOT of work but than u have control over your reaction. are you gg to do it with a joyful heart or a sad one?

as i go on in life i really pray that the lord will keep me in check. i do not wish to turn into some cynical and be so obsessed with the meaningless things in the world around me (like climbing the social ladder) i really pray that i will not do anything against my own set of morals. really. whats the point of betraying and backstabbing to get what you want? what is the point? i dont understand and i never want to understand it from their persepctive. its so scary... :)let me never become too complicated for you to understand.

a last song BY TONY RAND!!! his voice is so wonderful and this is DAHNEELA's fav song knocking on heaven;s door. his rendition is so nice.