sometimes i fail to understand

hello. sometimes i feel god and sometimes i dont or maybe i just neglect him. i dont really know. sometimes in anger or dissapointment i fail to see all the great things he has given me. i refuse to see them all. and now i guess is one of thise times. i dont really know why i feel so sick inside and all. i guess its the events of today the way everything has turned out. i just dont feel so good today or maybe its just one of those days lah.