disheartened with faith?

hellos. today started off great and was a rather good day except for on particular incident. okay shall talk about the incidentn first. my cell prayed for me to be holy spirit baptised. and through prayer i suddenly freaked out and and kept forcing my eyes shut cos for some weird reason they kept squinting. i dont know if i am upset i mean i feel ok but i m a little angry at myeslf because throughout the prayer i was like thinking "oh crap i m so not ready for this etc etc". my faith wavered.

but nonetheless, thanks to my cell mates for praying for me. quite paiseh when i didnt get the gift though. heehee oh wells. but for a minute after that i understood God's intention. i think he wanted me to not doubt my faith in Him.

oh a lighter note i went for KICKBOXING today and it was so FUN :) heehee. i wanna join alr confirm chop stamp LOL oh yes and i still want yummy yummy leh. sighs. ahh fasting from shopping cannot shop MUST not. my one fatal flaw. oh damm.

waiting to grow in god very patiently. :)