Calmness is the new black

woah feeling more at ease with myself than i have ever felt in th past few days. (: i wanna walk, take tint baby steps back to god. have to slowly let go of all the secular things in life. trust in God to put everything in place.

yesterday was cross country and i think me and dah stroll brisk walked at a prettygood rate. okay okay lah we were walking but it wasnt easy ok! tried hard tried hard.

than after that i went for church with xinhui and jiamin i was so tiredd. sometimes i feel like i dont really belong in that church. in the sense that i wanna ask God is this where u wanna put me? shall pray more and seek for answers. having werid conatations lately about churches. i want yo hvae th desire to know god more and walk closer to Him but hey it aint easy. sometimes i really just wanna pack my bags and walk away. how does one muster up so much conviction? so muct strength? I know they can do it because of god. shall persevere. have no intention of running away like a coward.

MUST walk closer to the Lord's heartbeat.

okay that after that i went SHOPPING!! wahhaahha. spending money. but stragely enough i didnt feel the retail therapy leh. TOO CROWDED. wah piang eh like war zone can? and after which i was STRANDED in orchard. wanted to call a cab but got NO CAB. ended up taking MRT. my poor aching legs. so bloody crowded i have this feeling taht to everbody else the things there "mian lui" (no need money).

so finally came home and was dead beat. ANNONCEMENT: JAMIE AND DAH I WAS TIRED TIL I NEVER NEVER WATCH KIM SAM SOON! muahahaha. :D

and now i wake up at 7.30 am preparing to go for debates *mumble grumble*
ITS A BEAUTIHOOOO DAY. (yes this is irony/sacarsm/ whatever you call it) bright side bright side. bloody hell strating to sound like a schizo