A Phase?

the past few days have been filled with a lil amount of fear in my heart which grew bigger and bigger and now, i just plugged it. believing that things will turn all alright cos hey the power behind me is great no? okay so what is it which i was so fearful of?

i have been fearing the future.

i know how some people are so excited to leave jc and head on to the future. take the bold steps and enjoy uni life however, i feel so different. strangely enough, i begin to fear the future. how will uni life be like? what kind of people will i meet?

maybe i am having such fears becuase i have really met a great bunch of people in NY. no matter how stressed/bitter i am, i get to school and see them and i will become a bungle of laughter. whethr is it all the DEEP converstaions i have with jamie about totally random things or my profound converstaions with xinhui (mostly about how we are state of the art) or even totally random ramblings with reena or or even with zying's aged old ah mu and parsley debates and her puesedo chinese accent... these people (the whole of my class) just make me feel so at home. i feel really really blessed to be in this class and yet maybe its because i feel so comfortable and happy with them i cannot really imagaine how school will be like without them... how will it be like to walk down the corridors without melissa's poison and fury and emma's bitterness or jamie and dah's foodfights or even xinhui's roaring (HAAHAA)?!

i think that in my whole school life this is indeed one of the best class i have ever been in :) but i guess we all learn in someway or somehow to always find out own directions in life no? what will it be like when we all spread our wings and fly?

i really wonder...

i am not sure how to end off this entry haahaa but i know i want to end it off on a happy note so ....

AYE CLASS I LOVE U LAH CAN? haahaahaahaa