Keep walking

sometimes i really wonder what gives each and everyone the motivation in life to keep walking in life. for me, i guess it would be safe to say that i draw strength from God but what about other people? like when the going gets tough where do you turn to. how do you just keep walking? is it the typical simple "it will all blow over" mentality or what is it actually? i really dont know.

also... i really really envy people with liken TEN years or just friendships which last a long long time, now just KNOW the person but really be friends with the person. the kind that you have been thorugh thick and thin together and the perosn basically knows all your flaws and yet at the end of the day can still safely say that he or she loves you. its so difficult to find to source for. of course i dont have much experince of these super long friendships considering that i am only 18 (having 10 years long of friendship would mean i knew the person at 8). but sometimes i feel/think that as the years go on the friendship just gets thinnner and thinner. you begin to see the person's flaws and everything else ugly comes out. how do u bring yourself to look beyond all the flaws and just at the person and think "hmmm... this person i still love despite..." i really long to have this kind of friendship but i will tell u in another maybe 4 years? haahaa i'm unsure as well.

i read in reader's digest that you should end a friendship when you wonder of it even started in the first place. but hey, i think that logic is bullshit. i mean that is but one of the guidelines but sometimes a friendship ends because people change and when people change u realise that you are no longer very suited to be friends anymore. how bout that? or maybe the person has not changed and all the flaws remain there and you decide, hey there is only so much bullshit i can take from you alright? i dont really know exactly but i guess the key to the whole issue is just to move on... dont dwell on what has passed or (however cliche it may sound) you will never move into the future. we all learn to let go at some point in time.

its times like these when i begin to see how great God's love is for me. i mean i must be full of bullshit sometimes as well okok what i am trying to say is i have my flaws and i am not perfect yet... He can love me still. In him I find the strength to keep walking and walking. i really marvel at the faith people can have sometimes even when bad things happen to them. Like Joan she contracted cancer and yet her faith in the Lord is ever so steadfast. how does one do that? i stand amazed at the amount faith.