*beeeeeeeeep*

yes i wanna curse swear and scream right now.

i dont wanna give a damm what you think about this entry whether its rude yadda yadda whatever. you know i used to like debate til recently when i had this stupid screwed up overdose of it and now i just feel like dying okay maybe not to the extent of dying. basically i am not just like really feeling anything posituve. the stupid us invasion of iraq is giving me a bloody headache. shall think about it using simple terms later and see if i can write say a better speech.

i just wanna yell at the top of my voice now argh so bloody fustrated. my bloody back is aching like crap for the WHOLE BLOODY FUCKING DAY and i had to attend debate and get flooded with information about iraq blah blah blah and i am still up at sat TWELVE AM with this stupid bloody aching back trying to wrote a good speech for some sorta screwed up debate invitationals by some *beep* institution. honestly, i just wanna walk away and say that i dont really give a five cents worth of shit of why the US invaded iraq. SURE i dont mind reading about it but to convince people why the US should not have bloody attacked Iraq is just so beyond me at this point in time. i just wanna go back and catch up with my school work and not give a flying shit about this. URGH. oh yes not to mention i have been having one of my BIMBO fits again. felt like a bloody bimbo. yes i dont read current affairs except for time but still honestly, why am i trying so ard for a debate i dont give a shit about. ITS NOT AS IF THOSE PEOPLE ARE PRESTIGIOUS OR SOMETHING. bleah. yes i m blooody fucking pissed. and too many cooks spoil the broth.

URGH URGH URGH. and i cant help it if the word/swear word (eg fuck shit etc etc) happens nto VIVIDLY capture my mood now. THIS REALLY SUCKS.

I NEED MY MOJO like NOW!!!!!

*inhale exhale* ok now i feel slightly better.

recently, i feel like god has been trying to tell me about being self assured. shall pray later but might be to tired to read the bible. watch your words when u r mad eileen watch ur words. oh sigh.